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How are you?
A version of this appeared on my Instagram account last week, but I thought I’d share on the blog as well. I think I’ve probably hit the pandemic wall over here. I’m not depressed; While I’m unfortunately no stranger to depression, I’ve thankfully been able to ward off any serious bouts over the last year. ☀️ There’s a lot of joy and laughter in my everyday life! I’m lucky and grateful. But I also feel so…
Fuzzy.
Isn’t it funny how our bodies and minds often want to throw in the towel just as the finish line appears? Sure, it’s off in the distance right now. But it’s there. And yet I’m dragging.
When I wake up in the morning, I’m ready to tackle the day. Within a few short hours, though, every ounce of motivation is gone, my heart heavy with guilt and disappointment that I’m not doing a good job in any of the roles I play. I’m overwhelmed by the simplest of tasks because it feels like there are a zillion other things I’ve dropped the ball on. And when I sit down at my computer, I often find myself just staring, the applications blurring as my mind drifts elsewhere. And if I admit defeat and retreat back to my family, my mind still drifts, and then I stay up too late in an effort to rescue what’s left of the day, wondering what I can do differently tomorrow to remain present.
Well, that was a fun run-on sentence! ;) Admittedly, it’s such a day-to-day thing. I’ll probably be all sunshine and rainbows tomorrow. Which, in turn, will make me question my sanity. 🤪 But do you sometimes feel like this too?!
I think I’m doing all the “right” things? I’m getting fresh air and exercise, spending time with the fam, taking time for myself, distancing myself from stressors, taking on less, and cutting myself slack. I’m also organizing closets, which has been surprisingly very helpful, haha. My most recent idea was that doing something drastic to my hair would change everything. So I chopped it and got some long curtain bangs… and went back to blonde (with a hint of strawberry). Stay tuned for that. 😆
In the meantime, I’ll be over here, sometimes feeling lethargic and uninspired and sometimes feeling really great (!), trying to pinpoint why some days are better than others.
Serious question, though: Does anyone have any closets that need organizing? Hit a girl up. ✌🏻
How are you?
Kelly, hang in there! I too have hit the pandemic wall, but I will say, as a teacher, being able to get the vaccine was a total mood booster for me! It gave me courage and hope to know that the end is in sight, even if that end is a slow burn. I’ve been in person teaching all year, which has definitely had its challenges and my whole way of working has been turned upside down and backwards and everywhere in between! But I’m keeping my eyes on spring break, my second dose of the vaccine next week and spring in Chicago is in sight!! Oh and fresh Irish soda bread next week :)
Kelly, the fact remains….we really don’t know when this will all end, that’s probably the thing that keeps lingering in all our minds. We hope and pray that our lives will return to normal, as it was before this blasted pandemic….but we rally don’t know. What you are feeling is the unknown….take one day at a time, sounds easy….but truthfully it’s not. Think of what you still do have….not what we don’t get to do, or have. ITS A MIGHTY TALL WALL….we can all understand that, PEACE!
Fellow Stag over here! <3 So much of this resonates with me… I try and control what i can, which usually means re-organizing everything, even things I have reorganized multiple times in the year! I have been itching to travel, and my family travel blog has been hurting for new content… so I started creating food trails through various towns in Connecticut.. I pick a food, find multple spots that serve that food, order take out, hit the road with the family, and bring everything home.. It's been a lot of fun…no screens, supporting local businesses, finding new spots to return to when this is all over, and eating food I didn't have to cook!!!! We've done everything from cookies and cupcakes to tacos and crepes.. Might be a fun way to support local businesses and try new foods!
Yup I’m feeling the wall too. And to add to it we just lost my MIL this Monday after a year long battle with cancer. Covid meant the bucket list things didn’t happen. But we are planning for an immediate family (all 6 of us – very small family on this side) trip in her honor on what would have been her 70th birthday in late May. And then a 15 night road trip in late July/early August which helps with looking forward and making the most of life. Planning for the future helps with the pandemic wall and the grief too.
Similar to Susan, I’m in education and got my 1st shot earlier this week and that felt amazing. I think just daily counting the 2 million more people that get it, and how those numbers will add up quickly (and how it’ll be 3 M/day by the end of the month as the J&J vaccine production really ramps up), and by mid-late summer we’ll for sure be coming out of this. I liken this “12 month wall” out of what will likely be a 15 month duration, to when I was in grad school and had the week 7 wall of each 10 week quarter. I got through that multiple times (took 6 years for the degree cos it’s a longer one than average, and I did it part time while working full time, undergoing IVF, having a baby – she was 2 1/2 when I graduated – and fixing up our dump house doing pretty much all the work ourselves.) If I could do that, then I can get through another 3 months of this! So maybe find a time in your past when you had to overcome another wall and remind yourself that you did it?
In the meantime, hugs, because hitting any kind of wall always sucks.